Oliver Kwek. Bedok View Sec School, member of 4e1'2008. Currently studying at Temasek Junior College, member of CG12/09. Member of TENDAYS,INC. Just wanna eat and sleep. To view around, please click the respective post-its. Thank you. =)
Saturday, April 25, 2009
Its been about a month....
I could still remember saying " Haiz, Life so hard" during maths class when in secondary school. And john would try to imitate me at times, which like so clever. I guess this phrase shall stick with me for quite long then....
Things are really happening very fast everyday. Busy months, hectic weeks, awesome days indeed. Mixed emotions everyday in school, i really don't know what to do....and i am already disconnected from the net already....no time for fb, blog, and other things that i want to.
With things which are getting so much chimmer, and days which end much later, i really hope this few weeks of my life pass quickly. I seriously working even worse than a working adult. Going to school at 7, coming home at 9 to 10. Even a working adult also have time for social life. Damn.
I think i have deproved, seriously. I cannot play well. Perhaps i am not cut out for flute, maybe i am not cut out for music. I think i am in an awkward position nowadays. Co room is just beside the band room, and i see a lot of band members whom i know almost everyday. The words "kena rejected by band" have been in my mouth over the past few weeks. Even now i have friends who still think i am in band. And whenever i hear that, it is equivalent to piercing a sharp knife into my heart.
I saw this in one's blog " being in TJCSB is a phenomenal experience. An experience unlike any other." Well, i guess i am deprived of it. I miss playing. And when people ask me if i am going for the band concert, i would answer yes. But in my heart, i haven't finish my sentence, "yes, i hope to go not as an audience but as a performer." Seriously, from playing with the band ever since last year end, now, i am an outsider, and if i were to go back, i am afraid of being labelled as an intruder. And till now, i am still not given a reason why i am not in band. Perhaps there is a reason that is not given but is already there for me to grasp - You suck at playing flute.
Signed for OB batam kayaking- but due to changes made, it became OBS sailing. Bad responses, the whole thing was cancelled. My application for OCIP failed. And now i am not a band member. How good is that. Plus the tutorials and lectures and the hectic cca i am in currently, life is really hard. life, so hard...
I could still remember saying " Haiz, Life so hard" during maths class when in secondary school. And john would try to imitate me at times, which like so clever. I guess this phrase shall stick with me for quite long then....
Things are really happening very fast everyday. Busy months, hectic weeks, awesome days indeed. Mixed emotions everyday in school, i really don't know what to do....and i am already disconnected from the net already....no time for fb, blog, and other things that i want to.
With things which are getting so much chimmer, and days which end much later, i really hope this few weeks of my life pass quickly. I seriously working even worse than a working adult. Going to school at 7, coming home at 9 to 10. Even a working adult also have time for social life. Damn.
I think i have deproved, seriously. I cannot play well. Perhaps i am not cut out for flute, maybe i am not cut out for music. I think i am in an awkward position nowadays. Co room is just beside the band room, and i see a lot of band members whom i know almost everyday. The words "kena rejected by band" have been in my mouth over the past few weeks. Even now i have friends who still think i am in band. And whenever i hear that, it is equivalent to piercing a sharp knife into my heart.
I saw this in one's blog " being in TJCSB is a phenomenal experience. An experience unlike any other." Well, i guess i am deprived of it. I miss playing. And when people ask me if i am going for the band concert, i would answer yes. But in my heart, i haven't finish my sentence, "yes, i hope to go not as an audience but as a performer." Seriously, from playing with the band ever since last year end, now, i am an outsider, and if i were to go back, i am afraid of being labelled as an intruder. And till now, i am still not given a reason why i am not in band. Perhaps there is a reason that is not given but is already there for me to grasp - You suck at playing flute.
Signed for OB batam kayaking- but due to changes made, it became OBS sailing. Bad responses, the whole thing was cancelled. My application for OCIP failed. And now i am not a band member. How good is that. Plus the tutorials and lectures and the hectic cca i am in currently, life is really hard. life, so hard...