Oliver Kwek. Bedok View Sec School, member of 4e1'2008. Currently studying at Temasek Junior College, member of CG12/09. Member of TENDAYS,INC. Just wanna eat and sleep. To view around, please click the respective post-its. Thank you. =)
Wednesday, December 30, 2009
2009 has been a year where all of us (4e1) have moved on to a new stage of our lives. Good things never lasts, perhaps huh. Moving on a stage of life brings many challenges, many unforgettable moments when i was feeling really down and also when i felt happy.
2009 has been an especially tough year, since there are so much things to handle, relationships, schoolwork, ccas, etc etc. This is also the year when i had slogged my guts out till 4-5am (with 730am as record timing) in order to sleep.
Nevertheless, schoolwork has got tougher and of higher capacity. Indeed, PW has left us a certain impact which all of us have individual and unique experiences of it. The days of PW were one of my stressful moments in my life i guess, where i had to like manage project and work at the same time. My group didn't had a really smooth path till the end. We changed our project scope for like a million times and had to always be rejected by our dearest PW teacher. How nice is that. Hahaha speaking of him, i don't wish to type out his name, cos i'll be still seeing him till end of next year. There's a lot more chances for me to say out his name, so i guess i shall not do it here. Back to my point, PW has brought me a lot of "sweet-sour-bitter-spiciness" in my life, and that made me ponder about life, made me know how good life was in the past.
Anyway, this nightmare of PW is finally over already and i ain't expecting much from my PW results. Sometimes, we do need to face reality and i'll never forgot the moment when my PW teacher said, "You are the worst group among the ten groups that i have this year". It didn't matter. As long as we had contributed our share of the project, no matter what the results are
, i won't feel guilty at the very least cos i know i have done what's expected of me as a member.
Enough about PW. I shall move on to other stuffs and not make this post anymore solemn. In this year, i applied for OBS, OCIP, Internship, etc etc programmes and guess what? I got in none. Boo~ I have been like thinking that i didn't get into all this because there are people better than me and that perhaps it was "godsend". Perhaps god knew that i couldn't manage my time properly and hence didn't give me the chance to participate in such programmes. Yeah, and i thank god for that. Seriously, i know that life would be of more experiences if i got into these activities and that life in school would be more fun. However, at times, we do need to sacrifice things in order to have others. This sentence has been on my mind for very long already and i understood it when i went through the darkest days of my life in tj. I know that for my studies, i have to sacrifice something. And yes, if i got into those programmes, i guess my promo results would have been worse.
Another thing i wanna talk about is CCA. I was very sad this year when i knew that i wouldn't get into band. Have you ever got that feeling of wanting something but you didn't in the very end? I initially was muddleheaded about what cca i should get into and my final decision was band. Guess what? I didn't get in. Furthermore, i was notified after like i went for quite a few practices already. That feeling of rejection and dejection was really really unbearable.
However, as time passed by, i had this feeling when i thought that it was okay not to be in the band cos i know i would pull the standard of the band down if i were in it. I have decided to give up that band passion for the next 2 years cos i know i have to for my studies. It's not that i don't do well in my work with band practices. Its the rigour and the stress of band that i would get that makes me wanna give it up for my studies. Yeah like what steph said, "the love-hate relationship with band".
Oh by the way, i am currently in CO. Yeah, but that CO passion isn't as much as compared to band. Yeah, i did felt bonded to CO for that little moment during the syf days, but now, i guess there's no longer a burning passion for it already. Back to my point, i do see no point of returning to band already. Yeah, people might think that i didn't go back because band got silver and that CO is GWH. Well, i am telling ya' that i didn't go back band cos i know i don't sound good on flute (both CO and band flute) already. With my front teeth continually like bucking out, i am sounding more and more airy on both types of flute. Hence, there's no point for playing until the day i get braces and my front teeth no longer bucks. And yup, i sound very airy on CO flute already, so i am trying my best not to sabotage band by not re-joining band. That's the best way i guess, even though i know i am doing bad for CO.
The very last part of my blog post is dedicated to my 4e1 and 12/09 classmates!
To 4e1: Having to know you people really made my life memorable and that i feel bonded to 4e1 and bedok view. Even though we may have gone our different ways, we still can meet up at times to prevent losing contact with each other! In life, we lose contact with people very very easily, so we should really really keep in touch! I look forward to a reunion at the end of next year~~ hhahahahs
To 12/09: You people are friendly and made me feel comfortable in tj! I seriously feel more bonded to 12/09 than tjco! hahahhahs yeah i guess everyone in class knows that. =) Its really heartwarming to be in the class of 12/09! We are at least not some super cheena or super boring class yeah? hahahs i do look forward to our class gathering next year -2nd jan!
Alrights! i guess i typed enough already. till then, happy new year!
PS: My lappy was down like a few weeks ago and yesterday it was repaired!!!
I left the place around 540pm and look at the picture above to see what time i arrived. So do the math and see how horribly long i waited! Thanks zhao ying for the smses that keep me occupied during that long period of time!Labels: a year in review, with my lappy repaired
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